I don't know what is actually happening

So as most of you know that I live on the Navajo Nation reservation. Gallup is the closest town and that's a 30 min drive hehe. So you could say I live in a farm, or ranch, or homestead. However you call it we have lots of open space and animals :) Very, very, very, different from how I was raised. I was born and raised in the city. I don't even think I was allowed to have a pet. Haha I knew nothing of caring for an animal or even to love an animal. The closest thing my kids had to a pet was our pet turtle girl. Even then we forgot to feed her. Haha she was a good turtle tho even tho she bit me lol. We couldn't bring her with us on the move so we have her a good home.....
     So I move here where there are sheep, horses, and dogs. Now at first I was like ummm ewww. Haha.  But now is a completely different story!! We have had many instances with these animals that I find myself asking what is wrong with me lol. Ok so first one was our dogs attacked one of our baby lambs. I ran out to see my lamb all bloody!! I screamed at my dogs and chased them away from the lamb. I started crying and didn't know what to do. Long story short the lamb is fine and survived. Hehe but I think back at that moment and ask myself 'why were you crying?!' Over a lamb? Really?? What's wrong with you.  Haha so I just chalked it up to maybe am emotional day.  So second incident was when I barrowed the truck from my brother in law. I had to do a hay run, so I got back and stated to unload the hay. I didn't know that the dogs had followed me. I guess they went under the truck for shade. So I unloaded the hay and jumped back in the truck, started it and went forward. I all of a sudden heard yapping and my truck went over a bumpe!! That's when I realized that I had ran over my dog!!! I jumped out if my truck and ran to my dog! I started crying and checking him to see if I broke his back or anything else. Well long story short he survived and is doing better now. I look back and ask myself again 'Did you just cry over a dog?! Really?! A dog?!' So this last one was not an incident but more of a realization. This past weekend I went to go visit family. The whole time I was there I was just worried about my animals. Who was gonna feed them, who was gonna give them water, who was gonna tie them in to make sure no coyotes get them.  My husband said he has it all under control but I couldn't help but worry. Sooooo we cut our vacation short and came home!  Now I think to myself what is really happening here!!!
        I don't know when it started or how it started but all I know is now I care about animals as if they are my kids!!! I am still in disbelief about why am I caring about animals or worried about them. A friend of mine told me it's my style now, the lifestyle of a rancher. Sooooo here I am becoming a animal loving rancher. Yes I still may not know what I am doing but I am trying my best and with the help of my friends I am definitely learning. :)