step parent or real parent

So most people know I am not only a mom but a step mom as well. My family is blended and when my husband started to date he told me straight up he had kids. Now 4 years married and 7 years together I have grown to love and bond with his children. In all honesty I can't imagine us without them. I say a little of my background so when I say what I want to say people know where I am coming from.
. I have been noticing that ladies get with men and even married, knowing they have kids from other women. So I don't know how to say this nice but I don't understand how they can be with a person knowing that their husband\wife has other children, and not encourage them to take care of or even go see their child\children. I make sure my husband has paid his child support every pay check, and he does it willingly the court or government has to force him pay for his children. I don't understand how are you not wanting your partner to be a father to his\her children. If they are not taking care of their kids with someone else what makes you think they will take care of kids with you? When it cones to Christian people not taking care of their children really blows my mind. Your in ministry being an example, people look up to you, but yet you can't pay child support or even go see your kids? How can a spouse stand by your side knowing that you are not taking care of your child? Oh and if your that person that discourages a relationship with the child just because of the "ex" you better be ashamed of yourself!!!! The child came before you and should come before you in your spouces life and if you don't like it then dont marry someone that already has children.
So as a parent\step parent I have to say it shouldn't make a difference. Love your spouces children like your own.God trusted you with that responsibility, not anyone else but you. And to Christians who dont take responsibility for their children I hope you don't sit in church like your perfect because I know God can deliver you from that dead beat syndrome,and you step up and provide for your children.

I see it now

I have to start a month ago. I have been praying to God to mold me and shape me into a woman of God that He can use. I also prayed to bring me a friend that can teach me and lead me in the right direction. I prayed that before and felt no difference and so I just gave up. The people that were brought into my life were sent out to reach other people, so I felt left there unfinished so to speak. A pastor came from Russia and preached and really touched my heart. I saw that I have become hardened to everything. I wasn't allowing myself to be venerable and allowing God to speak into my life. I repented and I started to pray and plead with all my heart for someone to come into my life to lead me and show me and speak to me. From then on I have a new friend I can say has helped me grow in God. I thank God for her everyday. She has spoke into my life and there was a point where I didn't want to hear it or anything. I wanted to quit but I felt like God say don't pray to be molded if you won't allow yourself to be molded. So I sucked it up and prayed for strength. Then our church conference came, and I have to be honest that I get really discouraged because it seems to always preach about getting sent out to preach. This time I made up my mind this year was gonna be different, and it was!!!! I was touched in more than one way!!!! The whole week was soo good!!!! First was about serving a God of second chances, as a Christian failure isn't an option. Because God is a forgiving father that no matter your past you will always have a future with God! Man the whole week just stirred my whole soul!! I saw it clear that I want to go out and let people know about my God!! I know as I settled in my heart that I will make a stand for God, my family and I, the devil is going to aim right for us. I know God will protect us and give us the strength we need. Serving him isn't in vain. Yesterday i made up my mind we are going street preaching even if its just me. My whole family went and they loved it!! I actually got to hear my husband testify. *that's a whole other blog* but i was brought to tears because I saw what God is doing in my family!! My girls loved it!!! They even wanted to preach!! I can say i see it now. How bland my life was when all i did was go to church on Sundays and Wednesday. I see what they mean when they say they always want to be at church.
now dont get me wrong in no way am I saying I am perfect or that I think I am better than anyone because that is not what I am saying. I am human I will make mistakes and knowing me I will probably say something that will offend or upset or even get some people very angry. Sometimes I'll be sorry and most times I won't. I am gonna try my best not to do that but being a Christian is all about growing making mistakes and being forgiven. And no I am not that person that is all fake, I just can't be like that ever lol. I am me 100% and I have God working in me to make me a better me :) so if I do something to upset you or anything feel free to let me know,after all that's how we grow and learn from our mistakes :) with God all things are possible!!!