I don't know what is actually happening

So as most of you know that I live on the Navajo Nation reservation. Gallup is the closest town and that's a 30 min drive hehe. So you could say I live in a farm, or ranch, or homestead. However you call it we have lots of open space and animals :) Very, very, very, different from how I was raised. I was born and raised in the city. I don't even think I was allowed to have a pet. Haha I knew nothing of caring for an animal or even to love an animal. The closest thing my kids had to a pet was our pet turtle girl. Even then we forgot to feed her. Haha she was a good turtle tho even tho she bit me lol. We couldn't bring her with us on the move so we have her a good home.....
     So I move here where there are sheep, horses, and dogs. Now at first I was like ummm ewww. Haha.  But now is a completely different story!! We have had many instances with these animals that I find myself asking what is wrong with me lol. Ok so first one was our dogs attacked one of our baby lambs. I ran out to see my lamb all bloody!! I screamed at my dogs and chased them away from the lamb. I started crying and didn't know what to do. Long story short the lamb is fine and survived. Hehe but I think back at that moment and ask myself 'why were you crying?!' Over a lamb? Really?? What's wrong with you.  Haha so I just chalked it up to maybe am emotional day.  So second incident was when I barrowed the truck from my brother in law. I had to do a hay run, so I got back and stated to unload the hay. I didn't know that the dogs had followed me. I guess they went under the truck for shade. So I unloaded the hay and jumped back in the truck, started it and went forward. I all of a sudden heard yapping and my truck went over a bumpe!! That's when I realized that I had ran over my dog!!! I jumped out if my truck and ran to my dog! I started crying and checking him to see if I broke his back or anything else. Well long story short he survived and is doing better now. I look back and ask myself again 'Did you just cry over a dog?! Really?! A dog?!' So this last one was not an incident but more of a realization. This past weekend I went to go visit family. The whole time I was there I was just worried about my animals. Who was gonna feed them, who was gonna give them water, who was gonna tie them in to make sure no coyotes get them.  My husband said he has it all under control but I couldn't help but worry. Sooooo we cut our vacation short and came home!  Now I think to myself what is really happening here!!!
        I don't know when it started or how it started but all I know is now I care about animals as if they are my kids!!! I am still in disbelief about why am I caring about animals or worried about them. A friend of mine told me it's my style now, the lifestyle of a rancher. Sooooo here I am becoming a animal loving rancher. Yes I still may not know what I am doing but I am trying my best and with the help of my friends I am definitely learning. :)

Living differently

Well it's been a while since I blogged...a long while hehe Well a lot has happened. My family and I have moved to the Navajo Nation reservation. My father in law passed in December and he had land and animals that needed to be taken care of. So my husband and I talked things through, and weighed out everything and we came to a decision to move our family there. So we packed all our stuffed and moved at the end of February.
    It was a huge change for my family.  I know that the decision didn't go over to well with my sisters, but I have to follow my husband there was no other option.  My girls and I left behind everything and everyone we know. I was born and raised in phx so I was leaving my home.  I was super scared of this change.  Yes I did cry my eyes out when no one was around. But face to face I put on a brave face and smiled through it all. Yes I still get sad and get so lonely and home sick. But I keep myself busy and just try not to let anyone see what I am going through.
   When we first got here we had no running water.  It had snowed that month before abs the pipes froze so we had to wait 2 weeks for someone to come and fix it.  One thing I learned on the rez is when someone says they are coming. ...it will probably be in 5 hours or not till tomorrow. So we made do tho. I didn't hear my kids complain not once!  They were so happy when we got here. They played outside till the sun went down. To this day they love being here. Yes they miss thier friends and cousins but I asked them if they want to move back and they said no.
   It snowed a couple time when we first moved here and yes we have never seen it snow before lol so we were all out barefoot in the snow lol. The weather here is nice.  We were still wearing jackets in the morning in MAY!!! We were all surprised!  Even now in the summer we enjoy the 90 degrees lol I am kinda scared for winter lol I don't think we are ready hehe.
     Where we live nothing is close. We are 15 min from the highway. From the highway to town is another 20 min hehe.  The school is 20 min in the opposite direction haha.  So I enjoy driving now hehe.  The road that leads to our place is all dirt! Sooo when it rains it gets really bad.  Now I have been told that and being from az where we got little to no rain...so I kinda was like yeah ok sure lol. HOWEVER it rained and it sucked!!!! First time it rained my car fish-tailed it all the way home lol then the second time I had to go looking for our sheep and ended up full of mud and slipping in the mud. I was so mad at my sheep lol the mud here is like clay it doesn't get like normal mud...it sticks to each other and to you.  So when it rains I am stuck home. I can only imagine when it snows hehe. 
  We love being out here and we enjoy the views of nature and the peacefulness of everything. It's so calm and no noise, no traffic, no speed limits lol no noisy neighbors and no crime. We enjoy it and no matter what happens or what we go through we have each other.  The saying goes "home is where your family is" and it's true!  Doesn't matter where we are as long as I have my husband and my kids, and my kids are happy that's all that matters to me.
          So good night from New Mexico and I'll post more soon.