Women's trip

So I went on a trip with the ladies from my church. I have to put out there that I will be using names in here and yes it's a good way. So if you see your name or someone else's name and you decide to go tell them be sure to stick to the truth. ;)

So I was able to go with the women from the church to California to universal studios. I had loads of fun.  However when I first signed up so did my older sister and I felt comfortable knowing that I'll have someone to hang out with on the trip. Then things came up and she wasn't able to go and I kinda started to freak out. I couldn't back out because on one hand I really wanted to go. So then my friend shania says she was going so we can hang out so I felt a little better. Then my friend angela said I could hang with them. So I was feeling better then shania was about to start a job so she wasn't able to go, so I got really sad. I wanted to go so bad that I just told myself that even if I am alone I am gonna go and have fun. Last min shania said she was going to again I was happy. :)

The day of the trip I was a bit nervous but my friend angela invited me over to sleep over so I did. She has a friend Beth that I didn't know all to well, just saw her at pool meetings or sometimes at angelas house. But I went anyways and well by the end of the trip I am glad I got to know Beth. The drive there I rode with some older ladies and sarah and Beth so I figured the best way to not annoy anyone is to stay to myself so that was what I decided to do. Sarah had other plans lol.  I am extremely grateful God put sarah in my van or put me in Sarah van hehe.  We talked and laughed, which opened doors to talk to other ladies, needless to say I didn't stay to myself and I didn't annoy anyone hehe. 
I roomed with beth angela and another girl amber and I got to listen to them talk and I felt like I wasnt the only one going through things, or I wasnt going crazy. Hehe. The day of the park I hung out with a group and it included 2 pregnant ladies my sis and sarah. I am glad my sis was in my group I always feel better when I have my sisters with me, no matter which sister it is ;) the rest of the ladies in the group I thought didn't like me or we weren't in the same clique, so I stayed by shania and sarah. By the end of the day I got to talk to all the ladies and they were really friendly.  I still think we are not in the same clique but I do know is that I had a chance to talk with them and I can say they are friendly. 

On the drive home I was tired. I figured so was everyone else so there wouldn't be much talking. I was wrong about that too hehe.  I did catch some zzzz but I got to talk to a lady I never met name dion. I have only seen her in church but never even got to talk to her. Honestly talking to her really put my feet back on the ground.  See what people don't know is that I was really thinking about leaving the church. I was being attacked by the devil and he was using church people. I was on the verge of leaving. I had prayed and prayed and prayed for a friend that would encourage me to get involved and not to give up on me. I felt alone and to top it all off this lady at church was really doing a good job at making me feel alone. So after I spoke with ms dion and sarah I went home and prayed because God sent me good friends like sarah angela amanda mallory and many many more that I was too busy feeling alone that I didn't realize I am blessed.

I am home and happy with my friends and greatful to God for bringing them in my life. I found out that the particular person is still trying to bring me down and make me look bad to others but it doesn't bother me anymore because I know for a fact that when God removes one person out of your life it's to make room for better people.  So I am grateful I went on this trip and I plan on continuing to build the friendship I have made. I also would like to continue going on the next trip ;) 3 days was a good break from my kids and I love them more than ever.

Fat

So lately I have been teased about my weight. Yes I am fat, yes I have a fat belly, and yes I have a double chin. So before I start I have to put out there that I am happy with the way I look and my weight!!!
When I was a teenager I only weighed 90lbs I got prego and at the end of the pregnancy I weighed 100lbs. With my 3 pregnancy I didn't care about what I weighed I ate what I wanted. By the end of my 3rd pregnancy I was almost 200lbs! I was 185!  Then I got pregnant again and no I did not plan it at all. Trust me I don't wish back to back babies on anyone. Anyways I was on birth control that didn't let loosing weight a easy task. I got my tubes tied and got of birth control and now I don't see the need to want to loose weight right away.

I can still walk and my husband can pick me up, so I am not that fat. People think it's Ok to comment on my weight or what I eat or drink and I take it because well I don't mind at all. I am not going to watch what I eat or eat rabbit food and stop drinking soda because people have a problem with all that I have.  I am not going be at a place and wish I could eat this and wish that I could have that. I am going to eat it and drink that and get the double scoop. To be honest I think to skinny is ugly because where is your padding?

I notice that when there is a couple and the lady starts losing weight, to much weight, the marriage starts to fall apart because that person is so focused on what they look like and going to the gym rather than spending time with family. I don'tneed to look good for other people or get attention from others by showing that I work out or even show off my body.  If I plan to loose weight I want to do it with my husband. Plus I don't think going back to high school weight is the right thing to do. Let's let the past be in the past. Let's let high school stay in high school we are grown now.

So with all that said let me put it out there words do hurt at the end of the day. I am happy as can be with all my extra padding and I am not going to look at food and say oh man I wish I could eat the, I am going to eat it!  You do only live once ;) now don't get me wrong I have skinny friends and skinny fits them and I am happy for them.  :) back in the day size 16 was considered beautiful and sexy. So as long as my husband and my kids think good of me then that's all that matters. Ok so people say about deseas that are associated with being considered fat and I will let you know I don't accept any of that!  I serve a mighty God and He will protect me from all illness that people will try to put on me.  :) I am fat and I am beautiful!

Mexico

 So most of you don't know it but last week I went to Mexico all by myself. hehe yes I drove the whole way too. :) oh yes I am cool like that and I have the most awesome husband that allows me to do thinks like that ;) The reason I went is because my best friend lives there with her husband and her family. She had to come and take care of business for a bit and no one was able to bring her here or pick her up, so being the best friend that I am I went to go pick her up.

Here is a picture of her and I with her kids eating before we left for the drive back :)

      So before I went, no one wanted to go with me because they had work, school, or kids. A lot of people were worried that I would disappear once I crossed the boarder. So that got me a little bit worried, but my friend met me at the boarder and we drove to her house together. I had planned to leave about 5 in the morning but I ended up leaving about 6 hehe. PS>> If you are planning on going to rocky point chandler is the fastest way to go it cuts down an hour and half <<< On my way out of queen creek I heard on the radio that on 43 and Bethany in phx that there was a shooting and all of Bethany was closed the light rail was effected and so was the freeway. I left and went to pick up my friend. I wanted to go to the beach but I don't know the time for the perfect tide so i couldn't get it boooo. hehe We made sure that her children were all safe and everything was OK , and we left about 1 in the afternoon.

        As we headed back to the boarder my tire blew! I was trying to pass someone and as soon as I passed that person, that is when my tire blew. I didn't even have a chance to get out of my van before a truck pulled up and a kid asked what happened (of course it is all in Spanish) *my Spanish is not that good lol* I told the guy that my tire blew. I didn't know if we has a spare or the tools to change the tire. On top of all of that I had no service to call my husband and my friend ran out of minutes to make a call anyways. I did find the jack and those kids jacked up the van and then we didn't know how to bring down the spare!! We didn't have any tools so I was kind of panicking hehe. Then this dump truck pulled up and it seemed like the guys knew each other, and they had the tool needed to bring down the tire, then they left. Next thing I knew the tire was fixed and those guys were gone. I didn't have time to offer them anything. oooh and when the tire blew it blew my gas tub pinch shut hehe if that makes any sense. so I only had 1/4 of a tank and I was planning of getting gas once we were state side. So I was kind of worried how we were going to get back. When we got to sonoyita (boarder city) we stopped at a llantera (tireshop) and asked the guy if he could help fix it and how much he would charge (sometimes people take advantage of Americans and charge them a lot for everything) The tire guy opened my gas tub and stuck it back in place NO CHARGE!!! he said whatever we could give him!! God was really watching over us. We made it back home safe and happy. 

This is my tire once we got it changed. 

double standards

           So in Arizona, the governor veto a bill that would give business owners freedom of refusing services to people based on the owners religion preference. Now I don't know much about the bill, I have heard it was written poorly. I also heard that it was written because a business owner got sued for all they got because they refused to do business for a homosexual couple. Now I have to get this out I don't hate homosexual people, I won't bash on them or anything like that. I have friends that are homosexuals and I know as a christian people find that hard to believe. I know that only through God only people can change, so I leave that persons' sin in Gods hands, I am not the one to judge or to condemn them to hell. So with that said I will go on with my blog :).
        I don't understand why so many people are against that bill. The way I see it is that, there have been so many laws passed to give homosexuals equal rights just like everyone else. Why not give christian or other religions the same respect and opportunity.  People are afraid to discriminate the homosexuals because of the back lash or the harassment they might receive, but what about the straight people getting discriminated because they are not homosexual, what about the straight people being bashed as homophobic because that's not what they believe in. We have rights as well and who is protecting our rights and who is standing up for us. If a person says they don't agree with homosexuals they are labeled a bad person or a homophobic or much more and much worse. I feel like the governor did not protect every ones rights by vetoing that bill. I feel like she did it because she wanted the popular vote. I did not listen to what she had to say because its all excuses and blah blah blah. I don't see why people find it hard to stand up for what they believe in. We cant be wishy washy and abandon our beliefs just because we are afraid of what society is going to label us. So here I am standing up for what I believe. I believe business owners have the right to refuse service to anyone based on what they believe, that was a right that was given to us by our founding fathers.
       Now I was talking to my husband and we got on the subject about getting a job, and I remember a friend telling me that she wouldn't get hired unless she took out the pink out of her hair. So that got me thinking that what if I don't get hired because my hair is a certain color. OK ok ok my hair won't always be pink, but I know it won't always be my natural color hehe :). But I was thinking if I don't get a particular job because of my hair, I think that would be discrimination. I wonder if I was a homosexual and my hair was a certain color would they still refuse the job to me? Would I be discriminated against because I am straight? Then what is gonna happen when the straight people are being discriminated against because they are not homosexual. So I guess the laws now are double standard because it will only matter if your homosexual but not if your straight or Christian? I am assuming when the founding fathers founded our nation they didn't think that people would be questioning every little sentence, every little law that was made. I know one thing for sure is that if this double standard is gonna keep happening I will be for sure that I will stand up for my rights and my sexuality as well as my Christianity.

Loyalty

You know what I have been noticing is that people are loosing the meaning of that word. People are so fast to turn in each other.  Loyalty is a part of life, at least to me it is very important. What I don't understand is how easy people are so quick to abandon others.

      Well let's start with friends. I see a lot of friends so quick to turn their back on their friends. Starting rumors, talking behind their backs, telling the secrets, or going around to others instead of going to that person. I don't understand how hard is it to be a loyal friend? To be honest and straight forward with each other. I don't understand staying rumors about people. Be happy with who you are and what you have. If you are a true friend you will be happy for your friend no matter what!  Even if you think they don't deserve it you still stand by your friend and support them no matter what. Don't go around telling people what you need to tell your friend.  One thing that gets me is when I find or through other people what my friend said about me. Grow Up and talk to me like an adult it shows respect. I respect you enough to let you what I think to tell you to your face have the same respect for me.

        Another place I see where loyalty is failing is in families. You are family!!! What I know is that if there is something I need to tell me family I tell them, I don't need anyone else saying anything.  Plus what I tell my family from my heart, I expect to be kept inside the family. I don't wanna hear that my family went to tell someone what I said about them in confidence, or in asking advice.  Again if I have something to say I go tell thay person, but I ask my family because I value what they have to say.  So when I see other family betraying each other and not talking, they lost loyalty to each other. So stay with family because friends come and go but family is forever they may be weird, crazy,lost, drunk, bad choices, or all of the above. You love and be loyal.
If you don't know how to be loyal you won't know loyalty when it's in your life.          
           Loyalty is important, backstabbing and rumor starting, and gossiping is not right. It doesn't make life easier, it makes life more drama and more stress and less full of love. Love each other be loyal to each other so you can have people loyal back to you. It make life better. :) I am loyal all the time I am honest all the time and I won't change. one thing people will not have to question about me is my loyalty and my honesty. I am a good friend to the end but you betray me and you lost my friendship and my trust. Sure I'll forgive you but my trust in you and my loyalty to you is and will no longer be there, yes I can rebuild it but it will be hard. So don't backstab me because you will loose a great friend, I can promise you that! 

Situations

So this post has been on my mind a lot but I didn't want to post it because everyone I know has a situation they are going through. I don't want anyone to think that I am writing this about them. I am not and this is from what I have seen in my life.  So here it goes...
      These have been times where I observed people in situations and I have tried to give advice because I been down that road. Then of course they get mad and don't talk to me for a long time. Then when I get back in contact with them, they are in the same situation only is gotten worse. I have been in many situations over and over and over and the only way I broke that cycle was when I learned from it and grew up and moved forward.  I sees that people don't learn from it. They keep making the same decisions that end them back up in the same situation. Then they ask why does this keep happening to me, or they blame others for that. I say in my head that I been trying to tell you to grow from in and learn not to make that choice because your going to end up back where you started or don't go back with that person because your going to end up back in the same spot. Then sometimes I can't help but think that they like that kind of pain or drama because they keep going back. They don't listen to anyone who tries to help them. I just don't understand.
      But I do know a solution, his name is Jesus christ.  I think the only way I git out of my situation was because God helped me. I had family praying for me and I listened to the advice they had for me. Yes it was hard and sometimes I didnt think I had the strength to do. Yes I didn't want to leave that place or person that was getting me into that situation. For the sake of my kids and myself I left. I believe that God was there 100 percent.  So I see people and their situations and I now can't help but think only God can help them and I am that instrument used to bring them to God. Its up to you ro them to make that choice to accept His help and get out of the situation and come into Gods blessing and what he has for you.  Yes its not going to be perfect but I do know its a lot easier because He is there for me and I am not doing it alone.  He strengths me when I feel like I can't go on. Trust me it does get better all God asks of you is to let him in your heart.
     

Tell it like it is

So there is one thing I can't seem to understand about people these days. I was brought up to take responsibility for the things we do or to own up to what we did. I know I am not the only one that was taught that growing up, so what I don't get is when it comes to the things we say people don't own up to it or think they have to lie about what they say?  I can say from my personal experience that that was the hardest issue I dealt with. I used to lie all the time, but once I got saved and became a mom I saw my words have an effect. That's when I chose with the help of God I started to watch what I say and own up to what I say. I have lost many friends because of that. On the flip side of that I ask people if is true if they did say that and they boldly life to my face!  I am trying not to start fights or cause problems but the way I look at it is how do I know I did something wrong if you won't tell me.  I want to correct myself and become a better person but how do I do that if no one tells me what I did wrong?
         Now I have learned that there is a way to go about asking or even telling someone something. Yes there is a lot of people in this world that can't handle being told anything and to be honest I avoid those people, because they are not willing to learn and grow. There have been many times where I have been told my tone was very rude or even disrespectful, what those people don't know is I am not saying what is really on my mind. That was a side note. Hehe but I think as humans and Christian people we should learn to grow. If someone said something that bothers us we should go and talk about it, learn from it,  and move on. If we see people going down a path that only leads to destruction and we can help them let's use our word and help. If we are that person that is going down that path let's be open to direction. Let's view things from other point of view. I always ask why did they. ... what caused that. ... what can I learn. If we did this there would be a lot less division in the church as well as gossip in the church.  We are there to help each other grow in the Lord, not think that just because we are further along in our walk with God than others we are better than them. God's uses everyone.