Sunday, June 28, 2015

Getting older

Well I just turned 30. I am not really sure how to feel about that honestly. I asked around how a 30 year old person is supposed to act lol and well they couldn't really tell me. I still feel the same and I still feel young. I don't know if I dwelt on it to long but I started to freak out. I started to think I didn't get to live my life. Like go party and do things people my age are doing. I wanted to go out and party and go get drunk and I guess "live my life" but I stopped and looked at my life now. I realized in my 30 years of life I have many accomplishments.
I have 4 beautiful children that love me unconditionally, they brighten my day and when I cry they are there to sit and hug me and cry with me.
I have a husband that words can't describe. He loves me and accepted children as his own and we had 2 together. He doesn't try and control my life, he doesn't try to change me, and he doesn't mind when I have my emotional break downs.
I also became a step mom. I accepted my husband's children as my own as well. So yes that makes it a total of 6 children. It's not easy being a step mom, when all you know is bad experiences of a step mom. I learned to also teach them and help them grow. I also learned to work together as a blended family. It's hard to do especially with 6 kids.
At 30 I can stay home and raise my children and help them grow and be home for my husband.
We have traveled to Mexico, to New Mexico, California, Colorado and Tucson. I can say my life is full of adventures, and lots of travel.
I can also so I have the best friends anyone can ask for. I sometimes get sad because I don't have a billion friends but then I remember I may not have many friends but I do have a select few that I can honestly say they are there for me no matter what. Sure it's less than 10 but it's not the number that matters it's the loyalty.
So sure I didn't go out and party in my 20s. Sure by 21 I already had 2 kids and I never got to "live my life", but I do have a fulfilled life. I have plenty of things I have accomplished and I have plenty of people in my life that will have my back no matter what. My life is full of love and lots of laughter and to be honest I wouldn't give that up for anything. No clubbing, no alcohol, and no meaningless friendships. I am happy where I am at in my life, I now look forward to many more adventures and many more friendships to come as I get older. Oh and no I will not stop coloring my hair either. 😆😆😊😊 here is to being 30!! 30 is the new 20!!